I'm less than a month away from being 28 years old and I'm still struggling with the fact that I'm a bastard, for lack of a better word.
I've tried to reach out to my father, especially after learning about the facts behind why he was not around and seemingly afraid of my maternal grandfather but I don't think I want to try anymore. I'm just fed up of being disappointed by him.
My daddy passed away a few years ago, but during his life we were not always close until after I had become an adult, he was a good dad during my life, he truly loved his son. He didn't quite understand my lifestyle and never really questioned it, but as time grew on he showed a great deal of compassion especially for a man that wouldn't show emotions in a plane crash. I miss my daddy.
Papa was a rolling stone, drunk, no job having, irresponsible lil boy who never grew up, and liked to hit on women, too. They say, daddy was a smooth-talking pretty boy and the women loved him. Nevertheless, I never faulted him; I new very early on that dads transgression were his own and not genetically transferred to me. When I was a boy, I said, when I grow up, I'd help him get back on track. That day never came; dad's fast living caught up with him and death claimed him. No sorrow here; that the life of a rolling stone.
ANONYMOUS – SORRY TO HEAR THAT…YOUR FATHER BEING ABSENT IS SOMETHING SO MANY OF US HAD TO DEAL WITH (MYSELF INCLUDED), BUT ALL YOU CAN DO IS TRY TO ENSURE THAT YOU ARE NOT THE KIND OF FATHER TO YOUR KIDS THAT HE WAS TO YOU…
CHET – I WOULD LIKE TO THINK THAT HE UNDERSTANDS A LOT NOW…
AUSFAHRT – I OFTEN THINK THAT WE GET CHANCES TO COME BACK & MAKE AMENDS FOR THE THINGS WE DID IN THIS LIFE IN THE NEXT LIFE…
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ReplyDeleteI'm less than a month away from being 28 years old and I'm still struggling with the fact that I'm a bastard, for lack of a better word.
I've tried to reach out to my father, especially after learning about the facts behind why he was not around and seemingly afraid of my maternal grandfather but I don't think I want to try anymore. I'm just fed up of being disappointed by him.
My daddy passed away a few years ago, but during his life we were not always close until after I had become an adult, he was a good dad during my life, he truly loved his son. He didn't quite understand my lifestyle and never really questioned it, but as time grew on he showed a great deal of compassion especially for a man that wouldn't show emotions in a plane crash. I miss my daddy.
ReplyDeletePapa was a rolling stone, drunk, no job having, irresponsible lil boy who never grew up, and liked to hit on women, too. They say, daddy was a smooth-talking pretty boy and the women loved him. Nevertheless, I never faulted him; I new very early on that dads transgression were his own and not genetically transferred to me. When I was a boy, I said, when I grow up, I'd help him get back on track. That day never came; dad's fast living caught up with him and death claimed him. No sorrow here; that the life of a rolling stone.
ReplyDeleteNot a real one
ReplyDeleteMines is more like a uncle. I did wish myself and my brother a happy father's day.
ReplyDeleteANONYMOUS – SORRY TO HEAR THAT…YOUR FATHER BEING ABSENT IS SOMETHING SO MANY OF US HAD TO DEAL WITH (MYSELF INCLUDED), BUT ALL YOU CAN DO IS TRY TO ENSURE THAT YOU ARE NOT THE KIND OF FATHER TO YOUR KIDS THAT HE WAS TO YOU…
ReplyDeleteCHET – I WOULD LIKE TO THINK THAT HE UNDERSTANDS A LOT NOW…
AUSFAHRT – I OFTEN THINK THAT WE GET CHANCES TO COME BACK & MAKE AMENDS FOR THE THINGS WE DID IN THIS LIFE IN THE NEXT LIFE…
CORVE – I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN…
REGGIE – INTERESTING…