"A friend of mine is dying and there's nothing I can do,
like so many of us in the ballroom community, I was vocal, I was loud and I was
strong about whether my house won a trophy but I was quiet to the escorting,
drugs and unsafe sexual practices.
I laughed with him when he told me his
sexual escapades but didn’t bother to ask “hey did you have protected sex?”
When others escorted and prostituted I just looked the other way and went to my
office job. When they partied hard and used their particular “drug services”, I
turned and walked away quietly. When we went to clubs or balls, I spend plenty
of money to buy drinks or paid their admission but I never asked “Do you have
money for your meds?”
Now it’s too late and all I can do is sit with them cry
and talk about the good times. The good times came with a price my silence came
with a price. As I watch life fade from him every day I can’t help but to ask
why I didn’t do more, why didn’t we all do more? Right now my friend can’t
speak he can barely move, all he can do is look at me and his eyes speaks
volumes to me, to my soul. My friend is dying and there’s nothing I can
do."
A question that we all need to ask ourselves daily; not specifically relating to HIV, but to any disease, condition or life experience. All of us hurt, one way or another. Great post!
This almost sounds like something from or related to "Paris is Burning."
"We could always do more", that is what we always think afterwards. I though the same for my dearest friend and mentor who died of breast cancer in '06. But sometimes just our presence is enough.
I wonder how old is this? People in general, at least in the western developed world, don't die from HIV/Aids anymore as long as they have access to medication and are treated regularly.
It is sad whenever a person has to sit back helpless and watcha friend or family member die; I agree with Curious today people tend to live a lot longer due to the help of medication and knowledge.
There is always that small percentage o people that give on the inside and hide it from the outside and this appears to be on of those situations. When a person becomes weary and has decided to give up there isn't anything we can do to stop them from passing on.
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A question that we all need to ask ourselves daily; not specifically relating to HIV, but to any disease, condition or life experience. All of us hurt, one way or another. Great post!
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ReplyDeleteROGER: WE ALL NEED TO EASE EACH OTHER'S PAIN
ReplyDeleteDARLON: HI?
ReplyDeleteThis almost sounds like something from or related to "Paris is Burning."
ReplyDelete"We could always do more", that is what we always think afterwards. I though the same for my dearest friend and mentor who died of breast cancer in '06. But sometimes just our presence is enough.
THOMAS: I WOULD LOVE TO SIT & LISTEN TO YOU TALK ABOUT YOUR LIFE!
ReplyDeleteI wonder how old is this? People in general, at least in the western developed world, don't die from HIV/Aids anymore as long as they have access to medication and are treated regularly.
ReplyDeleteMECHADUDE: I AM GLAD THIS POST MOVED YOU.
ReplyDeleteCURIOUS: I WONDERED THAT AS WELL, BUT WHEN I CAME ACROSS IT, I WAS MOVED SO I POSTED IT.
ReplyDeleteIt is sad whenever a person has to sit back helpless and watcha friend or family member die; I agree with Curious today people tend to live a lot longer due to the help of medication and knowledge.
ReplyDeleteThere is always that small percentage o people that give on the inside and hide it from the outside and this appears to be on of those situations. When a person becomes weary and has decided to give up there isn't anything we can do to stop them from passing on.
CHET: HOW MANY OF YOUR FRIENDS YOU LOST?
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