OLDIE, BUT GOODIE: ¡HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY!

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I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO MAKE OF THIS BLOG ENTRY. I DO KNOW THAT IFEEL LIKE OBAMA (FOUR MORE YEARS PLEASE?) BUT THAT’S LIFE, RIGHT? I KNOW THATNOEL HASN'T BEEN HAPPY LIVING IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY THAT HASN'T BEEN WELCOMING TOHIM & I DON’T BLAME HIM. I GET HIS NEED TO WANT TO LEAVE SINCE MOST OF OURPLANS AREN'T GOING ANYWEHRE & IT SUCKS LEAVING HIM HOME DAY AFTER DAY WHENI GO TO WORK. FUNNY JUST TWO DAYS AGO I ASKED HIM HE WAS HAPPY WITH ME AS I WASREFLECTING ON OUR ANNIVERSARY & HE SAID YES WITHOUT HESITATION. HIS GRIPEIS NOT BEING ABLE TO WORK & I GUESS I AM BEING SELFISH WHEN I THINK THAT ASLONG AS WE HAVE EACH OTHER, WE HAVE IT ALL & EVERYTHING WILL FALL IN PLACEIF YOU LET THEM. I DO KNOW THAT I AM GETTING TIRED OF THE WILL HE/WON’T HELEAVE & GO BACK TO HIS COUNTRY. NONETHELESS, I HAVE NO REGRETS & I GAVEMYSELF TO THE UNIVERSE IN THE PAST & I WON’T STOP NOW…IF HE IS MEANT TO BE,HE WILL BE…

It is said that one day for ‘God’ is a thousand years for us and today as I celebrate my FIRST year anniversary with Noel, this saying holds SO much truth. This felt like a long time coming and @ the same time it still feels like we are meeting for the first time. I wrote a blogentry exactly one year ago to the day asking questions that in a few hours later gave me hope in the possibility of NOT just finding someone, but finding THE one.

I have always prayed that one day I would meet a certain man that would have the important qualities that I hope for. This man I created in my mind has materialized into being and I cannot express how much LOVE I have for him. It is as if we were made for each other because our lives run parallel with each other. We have almost the same life story, the same woes, and the same problems. We even have so many similar characteristics and many things about us are the same. Before I met him, many things contributed to making my life miserable and sad. I am positive person, but as I grew older, negativism AND pessimism had found me.

When I met him, everything changed. He has brought meaning, positivism AND inspiration to my life. Our partnership hasn't been weakened AND destroyed by NEEDS, EXPECTATIONS, WANTS, CLINGING, INSECURITIES, CONRTOL, JEALOUSIES and other ego-based imperfections that plague us. In fact it is MY belief that we have thrived AND is celebrating what I am sure will be the first of MANY anniversaries because of those things. I say this because the foundation of OUR relationship is built on an UNCONDITIONAL LOVE for the other; anchored by the FREEDOM to be who WE are, without false pretense.

WE know EXACTLY how to express OUR SEXUALITY which is one of ‘God's’ gifts that creates feelings of divine oneness, PASSION that we cannot deny; JOY that goes beyond anything that exists in this world and LOVE that keeps us. SO many gay relationships fall apart and I feel that this happens because SO many of us are NOT honest AND real with each other. I believe that because of who we are is the reason WE have transcended everything we've experienced in the past. I get that we are a rarity, but we are nonetheless…& I THANK ‘GOD’ THAT I CAN CELEBRATE THIS DAY WITHOUT FEAR OR TREPIDATION…HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY, I LOVE YOU…