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Lately
I’ve pierced the VERY thin veil of a long-standing reality which I
had considered to be a delusion. The reality is simply this: I wish I wasn’t DEEPLY aware of others. The things
going on in their lives…their jobs, relationships, problems, joys, thoughts,
insights (rather lack thereof),
attitudes, tastes, desires, fears, etc. I'm VERY certain that this
delusion is the twisted side of my reality, but I SO WISH I DIDN’T KNOW BETTER!
Be that
as it may, the impact of my reality has been a constant state of low-grade
anxiety. While it's still a little early to tell, I know existence can’t be
good. Does this mean I am tired of
the world? Or can I be evolving and this is my reflection stage?
My friend, being the compassionate man that you are, it doesn't have to be at a price. Knowing what you know about others is one thing, please remember to just let it go. Don't allow their issues/concerns to become burdens for you. If necessary, offer advice and then move on.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to be so caring sometimes,,,, but if it's in your nature, you can't really fight or change it - it's being human!
ReplyDeleteI think it was in the Magnum Force where Clint Eastwood said after the criminal boss got blown up in a car, "A man's got to know his limitations." Know what yours are and forget about trying to change those things that can't be changed by you anyway.
ReplyDeleteI too wish I didn't know, I didn't care. I find myself carrying other people's burdens and loads.. I know I should know my limits... but I haven't. I at time consider it just part of me... so am learning to manage it.
ReplyDeleteyes, it's all about managing 'the gift'.
ReplyDeleteYears ago, a famous astrologer did up my chart and told me that she was really 'sorry' for me. She told me that my destiny and job in life was to keep planting seeds and never turning back to see if the trees bore fruit or to enjoy the fruits of my labor.
LOL, a very DISMAL reading for which I paid a small fortune at the time.
Many decades later, I realized what it was that she was talking about. Fact is that I "SEE" things. I can peer into people's souls and know their true identity, the sincerity of their actions and words, their motives and their best kept secrets. I can't do this with every person I meet, but my bullshit meter and gaydar are pretty well-developed and frighteningly accurate.
I have learned to wait for people to come to me with their problems and concerns, and THEN give em the wammy. "HOW did you know that, Jeff..How could you possibly know?" My answer always is, "I dont know how, I just do." People do gravitate to us and they will come. They seek our advice and knowledge. They feel comfortable and safe with us.
The trick is, Gaytekeeper, you open the gate and then walk on to the next one. Whether or not they enter their personal gate is neither your responsibility nor your concern. "The Gift" was given to us to GUIDE others, not to change their destinies or our own.
And now I know why, with the gazillion blogs out there, I happened to stumble upon yours.
HUGZ.....
ROGER: POINT WELL TAKEN!
ReplyDeleteSTEVEA: BEING HUMAN SUCKS SOMETIMES!
ReplyDeleteCURIOUS: NORMALLY I DO, BUT SOMETIMES…
ReplyDeleteSINIA: YOU ARE ONTO SOMETHING THERE, BALANCE IS KEY.
ReplyDeleteJEFF: I MUST KNOW WHO YOU ARE!
ReplyDeleteMe? I am that I am. I am every man and nobody in particular.
ReplyDeleteAs the song goes, I've been a pirate, a poet, a pawn and a king... I just happen to see a bit more clearly than most.
JEFF: I WILL FIND YOU SIR...
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