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Kids/babies have one big job while growing up. They have to figure out how the
world works. So they try to understand and make sense out of what they
encounter and see. One of the big ways they do that is to swallow the values
and beliefs that their families, teachers and society tell them about being an
adult. The good kid who downloaded all the programming about who he was
supposed to be in life is typical of a man who comes out late in life. Not
being a questioning or introspective type of guy, he will either stumble over a
guy that he falls in love with, or have a mid-life-like crisis. It will be at
this point in his life that he finally figures out that he is unhappy.
Suddenly, his life will not be fulfilling, and it is then that he really starts
to search inside of himself and starts the process where he hopefully will
figure out what is missing.
2) Some men acknowledge that they have had feelings for other boys
and men while growing up, may have even had several sexual experiences, but
feel that they cannot still be loved and be gay. They may continue to have sex
on the side or not, but they feels like imposters as they act and do what is
expected of them, even as they die inside.
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3) Another possibility is that, as a boy, he was sexually abused.
Whether he identified what happened as abuse or not, he uses those feelings as
the basis for the belief that he would not be having those feelings towards men
if it had not happened to him. This man is deeply ashamed and full of
self-loathing. He desperately wants to be normal, and is angry about what was
done to him as child and how it is keeping him from feeling/being normal.
4) Any and all of the above maybe tied to a religious belief that
homosexuality is wrong. A common part of the self-hatred that makes up the core
of how a gay man or boy may see himself is due to buying into the belief system
that who one is, or what one does, is bad. While religion can and does play a
positive role in many people’s lives, when a religion tells its believers to
hate themselves for being who they are, it is criminal, and creates unnecessary
pain in the world.
SOURCE: MYOST
NONE of the above...
ReplyDeleteI was always attracted to men, had a few enjoyable early-teen encounters, but went on to do the hetero thing; marry, have kids and live a monagamous suburban middle-class life. I liked women; still do, and thoroughly enjoyed sex with them. Had a number of relationships over the years and knew that something wasn't exactly 'right', but had no burning desire to find out what it was and really carried no guilt about getting off on men. My private thoughts were just that; private.
When the time was right; divorced for a number of years and with a grown son, I decided to see what M2M sex was all about and discovered that I couldn't get enough of it.
Again, when the time was right, I met and fell deeply in love with MR RIGHT and can now say that having what I have now, I was never really in love before. I never felt the intense desire, loyalty, bond and as I have recently discovered, the unconditional love for a woman that I feel towards my man.
I only have one regret, and that is having waited over 50 years to find my true self and my true love, but maybe that is how it had to be.
Maybe you weren't ready for your true self.
DeleteUnfortunately, some men never figure it out or, if they do, go into deep denial and translate this into rabid homophobia.
ReplyDeleteYeah talk about being trapped in your own life.
DeleteMethinks some ppl are infected w/ that vicious Disease To Please (others) & when it comes to pleasing their authentic selves, they fail so miserably.
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What a sad place to be.
Deleteoh yes...they all were on point. And yes, sometimes that need to be REAL with their self may never come. It gets to the point were its not only denial but DELUSIONAL...the delusional that they really ARE straight. A shame.
ReplyDeleteSo many of us don't know who we are...
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