…Living this life, taking chances to make me count for something so that I can make a difference in the lives of others; yet I can’t help but wonder if my deeds were pointless…wasteful because I am here fighting this battle with
NO aid from those that I knew before. I suppose it is
MY fault really, because I chose to respond to the deficiencies I saw around me in the lives of persons that needed me.
Wonder why I am ALWAYS left holding the bag, dealing with the mess they left while they carry on with life? I don’t hate being the one that chose to help, but sometimes I can’t help but think how easy it is to look @ their circumstances
AND decide it is better not to get involved. It is sad to realize that I was embraced for what I could give, but when it comes time to return the gesture…Serves me right I suppose.
I mean who OR what told me to be this go-to-guy, the one that will help because you are in need? I’ve come to realize that I belong to a particular soul group that’s born knowing their purpose in life. I feel like an animal that spent his day foraging for food, taking care of myself and pack while creating a home.
I get that we are flawed, but I can’t help but wonder if this just an excuse to be selfish? They say
PURPOSE GIVES OUR LIFE MEANING; and as
UNIQUE as I am, I can’t help feel that I am here for all the wrong the reasons trying
NOT to scrape by in this game called life…Would life have me assume that since you didn’t call to see if I am okay, I can take to mean that you have @ least thought about me? Do you even wish that you could share the ups AND downs in my life with me? Do you remember the man I am? The way I feel about life?
IF YOU KNOW COME FIND ME…HERE I AM…
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ReplyDeleteTruly deep and insightfully written. I am feeling you ont his one.
ReplyDeleteThat's a very nice Blog... btw where are you onto the picture? H&K
ReplyDeleteStay strong - things will work out eventually.
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Great post! I ask myself these same questions everyday. And I really don't have an answer. All i do know is, we can't hide away from what God has called us to do for other people. All it is, is us fulfilling HIS purpose for our lives. Whether someone will do the same for us is never going to be for certain. But what is certain, is that God will take care of us when we need it. At least that wat my heart is telling me today.
ReplyDeleteeven with broken wings u will still manage to fly
ReplyDeletewow, this was really deep buddy.
ReplyDeletethis was deep indeed. however, Tru3logic was right on point. Other people will never be able to fulfill your needs. Only God can do that! I've learned not to expect them to...trusting and believing God will heal and make up the difference.
ReplyDeleteWhoa!
ReplyDeleteThis is a tough one to respond to seriously...
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ReplyDeleteThere is a very simple but very true saying.. A friend in need is a friend indeed. From experience,i've come to realize that a lot of us are selfish ,more takers than givers. So we want people to be there for us but when it is our time to return the favor we are nowhere to be found- sad but true.
ReplyDeleteBabes you are who you are and don't let anyone take away your essence and change you. You are incredibly kind and you are a giver,continue being you despite the selfishness that you may encounter.However,let this not be at expense of your emotional,physical, and financial well being, since without all these you won't have anything to give to others.