Hello, I've been struggling for about a year now with an unrequited love that has left me so empty and lonely that I honestly don't know where to turn to. A long story short, I feel in love with an amazing guy who is 4 years older than me. Due to age difference he has refused to be my partner although we have lived so much things as though we are a couple. In my heart we are a couple actually.
I love him very deeply and have been faithful to him even if he doesn't care. We used to talk a lot, message over facebook, chat over messenger...we have been very close. But lately, these past 3 months he has been very distant although we meet in person quiet regularly. Although this time around what gets me is that he is lost in his cellphone, responding text and facebook messages while he hardly responds to mine lately. He claims he doesn't love me and actually he just thinks of me as a friend, yet we have sex whenever he wants to, not when I want to.
This last days I've come to realize that I must get away from him at any cost, well, I deleted my facebook account and cut any chance for us to talk online. I saw him today at the club and I treated him distant and cold, which made me feel successful and strong for the time being, but as hours went by I just feel so miserable that he is not calling me, he is not interested in my life at all, he doesn't reply my texts...I really want to get over this guy but I feel tormented at the thought of this feeling of mine being true love. I don't know what to do with my broken heart and I don't know how to cope with the fact that his life goes on quiet well without me, while my life is an unbearable hell...PLEASE HELP ME!