OLDIE, BUT GOODIE: 21 ET LÉGAL

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Forhundreds of years, we've been taught that sexual monogamy is natural forpeople. It’s the normal way. It’s the right way. And my friends ALWAYS sought to talk to me before orafter I’ve indulged myself with a man of choosing. I get where they were coming from because I had SO many rules about who I would have sex with and I NEVER let that go. But after 4 relationships that took from the age of 19-25, something had to change because my monolithic and monogamistic worldview was collapsing under its own weight. Still to this day some of friends thank the universe that Noel is in my life, and I do as well, I just wish they would understand that all our paths are different and we all get to that ‘place’ one way or another…

Have you ever been in a situation where you had to grow up? Have you ever sacrifice yourself in order to elevate yourself to the next level? Have you ever been the right person, but in the wrong time? WELL I HAVE…it might seem crazy to you or a bit off the wall but when you know who you are, what you want and what it will take to get it and you have to make a choice and I did…

I found myself at a point in my life that I hadn't plan, I know we can’t control our lives, but nonetheless here I am…So here I am at a cross-road and I've been intimate with 21 MEN at this point and the crazy thing is that it doesn't faze me one bit. Sure I know how others view me, but I know that we are our worst critic. Makes me wonder what does one do when you've reach a place in your life that wasn't planned? RAISE A GLASS & TIP YOUR HAT?

I could but the funny thing is that I don't drink and I don't wear hats SO...so I've MADE LOVE TO a few…and a few I just F&CK. However I've learned a lot about THEM and MYSELF. I've learned that no matter how many times I CUM, the provincial, conservative and sometimes oppressing views I had about sex and sexuality has changed. I have become increasingly more aware that sexuality itself is a fluid, dynamic, and evolving state of being versus the stagnant views I had in my mind. What was once thought to be a sexual taboo is now a commonly accepted sexual thought. I am now focusing on sexuality, sensuality and love. Each time I partake in filling sexual desires I came to a new realization about my existence and each person told a different story, all however was loosely connected together primarily by the amount of passion, life, vitality and eroticism.

When I reflect on where I’ve come from and where I am now it amazes me; I’ve somehow magically developed into a tender, same-gender-loving…MAN with a bittersweet SOUL. I’ve fought for my right to be who I am and to do what I want…When I think of myself loving another man when I was younger there was tension and turmoil followed by a distant display of ‘LOVE.’ I was the stereotypical confused GAY man struggling in angst over my thoughts on the life I wanted versus my illicit sexual activity. Now that I am GROWN now, I am much OLDER and WISER…I am more erotically and emotionally advanced, I now understand that what I had before was only the salad before the main course. SO TO EACH AND EVERY MAN THAT I’VE THE PLEASURE OF BEING INTIMATE WITH I SAY THANK U…I AM WHO I AM BECAUSE OF U & I WILL ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL TO YOU…