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Friday, 05 December 2008

WORKING ME


For about a week I’ve been contemplating quitting my job. I am NOT a quitter but working with someone that has to be a B!TCH when it is necessary is more than I am prepared to deal with. I came to this realization when I lied to my boss about finishing a project that would take days but she expected it to be completed in mere minutes. I wanted to tell her SO bad that I didn’t complete it so she could FREAK THE F&CK out but I didn’t. I lied because I know that there are persons depending on me and in these tough economic I don’t want to be unemployed. I guess it would WAY TOO much to have a boss that actually appreciates the persons working for her…INSTEAD SHE WOULD RATHER THAT I HATE N’ DESPISE HER…So here how it went down…Last week things FINALLY came to a boiling point. My boss and I had it out and I could tell that she was VERY surprised because the woman hung up her phone on me and came to confront me face to face (I guess seeing was supposed to make me back down). I thought I was going to be fired for sure, but I couldn’t let her think that I can’t AND won’t stand up for my rights. The thing about our confrontation is that I was VERY calm, my voice was steady AND my blood pressure didn’t go up. I get that she is under pressure AND others are NOT pulling their weight, but I am. I guess she needs to let someone have and I guess I am the RIGHT person because it is easy to blame shit on me. If only it were that simple…Since I’ve ONLY been working there for a month I can’t AND won’t take the blame for things that go on in a company that  is SO backwards AND with NO real plan OR system in place to get things done. So you know B!TCH wasn’t having that right? She went on about how I can’t multi-task (ME KISHNA ANDREW MARK CAREY HOMOSEXUAL FROM BIRTH) cannot multi-task? I WAS LIKE HUH? And I thought, I multi-task EVERYDAY by NOT slapping the F&CK out of you OR telling about your HORRIBLE people skills…but I didn’t. I took the diplomatic approach and VERY calmly let her know that I am NOT her enemy and did NOT come there to take anything away from her. I plainly told her that I AM VERY HAPPY WITH MY LIFE…despite the fact that they don’t pay me anything, I am grateful that I have a job and that I somewhere to lay my head. B!TCH brought out the peace bringer side of me. After our hour talk we both decided that we needed to head home…As I settled @ home I wondered to myself if our conversation had any effect on how she behaves…funny how we ask questions that are answered almost @ the EXACT moment we had them…So back to work the next day and she and I had a another interaction. This time I did NOT engage her, I just walked out of her office as she raised her voice AND lost her patience because she didn’t feel like explaining to me how to process a return payment to a client. It was this incident that made me thought about quitting AND I promised myself that if she breathes @ me too hard I will give her the keys and walk away because I don’t feel trying to make a living should be this much hell. I sometimes wonder who OR what I was in my previous life because it seems that I have a way of working with companies that are crap OR there are persons there that are getting EVERYTHING and they STILL want to shit on the little people. All I can say is that if I wasn’t STRONG in who I am AND I choose to see beyond her, I would SO return to her what she is giving me…BUT I KNOW THAT THIS JOB LIKE EVERYTHING IN LIFE WILL PASS…I AM ONLY THERE UNTIL I AM SUPPOSED TO BE (HOPE THE TIME TO LEAVE ISN’T TOO FAR OFF). I GUESS IT IS TRUE WHAT A FRIEND OF MINE SAY ABOUT WOMEN THAT ARE SOFT SPOKEN, IT’S LIKE WORKING ANGEL ONE DAY THEN THE NEXT SOME OTHER DEMONIC ENERGY TAKES OVER…TALKING ABOUT MULTI-TASKING…

16 comments:

  1. I'll have to remember that "Multi-tasking" = not punching my boss in his face! LOL!!

    XO

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  2. your real name is Kishna...wow!! So close to Kinshar. that is so ironic, but cool. Homo from birth (looking around) have you eva had a girl? Dont knock it until youve tried it *your words*...lol


    How are you sweets??

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  3. Take it easy with the bitch lady...dont want her to stress you out. So stay in your lane....


    Naw fuck that...she better stay in her lane!!! Do you need me??

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  4. ummm, another thing...where those titties..... Get some ladies with some tits man.

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  5. KIN'SHAR - YEAH THAT'S MY NAME...YEAH I'VE DONE GIRLS IN MY TEENAGE YEARS, I GUESS THAT'S WHY MY MOM WAS SO SHOCKED WHEN I TOLD HER THAT I AM GAY...MY BOSS AIN'T GONNA STRESS ME OUT...TRUST THAT!!! TO BE HONEST WITH YOU I FEEL SORRY FOR HER BECAUSE SHE IS ALWAYS HAVE TO PROVE THAT SHE IS CONTROL AND THAT SHE IS BOSS...

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  6. Yikes! Sorry you hate your boss, man. I'm sure you've been looking for other opportunities cus this one doesn't sound healthy.

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  7. ok we bout to shock mama again....LOL

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  8. LMAO @ Kin'shar!!! You know I am having so much bad luck with guys that I was actually becoming serious about being straight. It's far from who I am, but dammit I'm tired of assholes! =(

    As far as that bitch at your job... not me, not no but hell naw... lol. She would have gotten the treatment, two snaps and the turn and it would have been a done dada. ;)

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  9. LMAO @ Xivinrah.....tired of what!?!?!? you are so sick boi

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  10. F her lol... I know ur not laughing about this but, yeah people like her make you wanna jump on their backs, and tear their heads OFF!!!!!

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  11. At any job, when they find a work horse, the work 'em. A job well done is it's own punishment.

    If her antics don't chill out, start seeking new employment elsewhere. But don't quit w/out a new gig. This economy is F'ed up.

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  12. I've had an antagonist for a boss before [maybe I do now]. It's funny how you have to reserve yourself from saying anything remotely close to what's really on your mind - so I can relate to a certain degree - but you are a whole lot more candid than I am. So it must be quite interesting to see you there gritting your teeth.

    But for positives I don't think your boss will be one to change so you definately will have to find something else. Until then I think that you relating to her as openly as possible is positive let her know that her expectations are a bit inflated and try to get a job description for the sake of even just identifying that you do have a great deal of responsibilities; even if you create a mock one just to show what you do on a daily basis since she feels that you don't multi-task. I'll shut-up now but I would also make my "work enemy" my friend [but that's my nature] when you do something nice for evil people it throws them off balance - just don't make it a habit.

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  13. MECHADUDE2001 - I WON'T QUIT MY JOB WITHOUT GETTING ANOTHER GIG...EVEN THOUGH I CAME PRETTY CLOSE. THE THING ABOUT THIS JOB IS THAT IT IS EASY BUT MY BOSS IS MAKING IT DIFFICULT...BUT I WILL HOLD MY OWN UNTIL THE UNIVERSE DECIDES I SHOULDN'T BE THERE ANYMORE

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  14. ®‡ø - YOU LIKE BEING THE PEACE BRINGER BECAUSE IT BOTHERS YOU THAT SOMEONE IS ACTING A CERTAIN WAY TOWARDS YOU & THAT'S COOL BUT SOMETIMES IN LIFE THEIR ILLOGIC CAN'T BE REASONED WITH...I KNOW THAT I WILL FIND ANOTHER JOB...PITY I WANTED TO STAY @ ONE PLACE BEFORE I MAKE MY MOVE FROM THE BAHAMAS TO CANADA

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  15. Back in 2001 I had a boss who was straight from Lucifer's hole. The guy had absolutely no manners and was uncouth. He loved spitting unkind words to his staff and loved shouting. It didn't matter that you were a manager, he would shout and humiliate you in front of everyone, even junior staff.

    So I wrote him a letter of resignation one day. I was willing to quit my job even though I didn't have a back-up plan. That's how fed-up and miserable I was. Waking up each morning knowing you were going to meet Lucifer's leutenant was too much to bear.
    But he convinced me not to quit.

    But you know I definitely identify with you about having persons who are dependent on you and not wanting to be unemployed in these times. And I'm really sorry that you find yourself in this crappy situation. But I'm glad you recognise that this situation will pass, and it will pass. And it takes a person of strong character and foresight to think like you do. Keep being positive and never let people like your boss defeat you. Let her be in her misery.

    (I don't know if your friend is right about women who are soft-spoken being angels today only to transform as devils the next? I'm soft-spoken and have yet to witness this terrible metamorphosis in me).

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  16. I have come to the conclusion that your boss is emotionally immature.

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