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Wednesday, 19 November 2008

¿WHAT IN THE GAY?

About a week ago I saw an ex manager of mine; this particular manager I wrote about in a previous blog entry. So imagine my surprise when I heard a voice call my name and say IF I AM OKAY & HOW COME I DIDN’T ACKNOWLEDGE MY BOY (his lingo NOT mine). Now I let that pass because I thought HEY, HE MUST HAVE BEEN PLAYING A JOKE OR SOMETHING because he had seen me before and we didn’t say ONE word to each other. So now yesterday I am on my way to work, I hear this car horn trying to get my attention and can you guess who it was? YEP HIM! I am like WTF? So I started looking around for the cameras because I know I am about to get PUNKED! With no luck finding the cameras I made my way to work trying to figure out what the hell was up with him. Was he trying to make amends for the way he treated me more than 10 years ago? Was he sorry for firing my ass because I am gay? All I know is that let go that shit years ago (LORD knows it took me a while) but I did it AND here I am…Yet I wonder what series of events lead him to exchange pleasantries with me? Is because his son is gay? Could it be that he has seen the error of his ways? Or could he himself be gay? Whatever his modus operandi I know that I must stay afloat amidst the spin…I am all about forgiveness and stuff like that but I can’t help but sense the NEGATIVITY in his words AND actions. I guess it’s like they say WE ALL RADIATE ENERGY & I DON’T NEED HIS TO BE MESSED UP WITH MINE and though I will wrap myself up in a cocoon of loving AND protective light; I will face the dark when it comes my way. @ the end of it all, I know that he ONLY be who he is and I have to ACCEPT that each of us is allowed to have different perspectives AND opinions…even if it is about MY sexuality…SO WHILE I REAP THE BENEFITS OF WALKING THIS PATH, I HAVE A FEELING THAT HE CAN SEE THAT HOW HE ACTED TOWARDS ME IN THE PAST DID NOT BREAK ME. I FREED MYSELF FROM TRYING TO TWIST INTO SHAPES THAT’LL FIT THE SPACES HE NEEDS FILLED & I KNOW THAT I AM A BETTER MAN FOR IT.

11 comments:

  1. You know how bullies are, they are strong when you are weak and fearful. You give them power to terorrise you when they see that you are afraid of them, but as soon as you stand up for yourself the bullying stops. So maybe that's what's happening with your ex-manager. That day when you decided to stand your ground, he started seeing you in a different light. You took away the power he thought he had, maybe. But who knows with people, it could also be any of the reasons you mentioned.

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  2. Hey Gayte, its nice to know that you have forgiven a man that has dented your past...But for him to start trying to come back into your life somehow...is ridiculous!! Maybe your right...he may have saw you and saw some attractions. Hell go out with him and make him pay for hurting you...LOL!

    Awww man, then where would that leave us....LOL (flirting again)

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  3. I feel you. I hate having negative people infect me with their energy its so draining. Its good that you forgave him for what he did to you in the past. Maybe he's trying to make amends but whatever the case may be keep being positive & doing you.

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  4. LOL @ you feeling like you were about to be punked..... Im glad you are on the right path...

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  5. Success and the ability to move on is the best revenge.

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  6. Yo Gayte,
    LOL I know this is Off topic, but I have to ask, where do you find such great photos/images? I'm feelin' this sista with this post, and the nude guy sittin under the leaf/umbrella that accompanied "Fair Weather Friend."

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  7. I was hoping for a happier story. Sorry that the ex manager was a douche.

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  8. PHARAOH - I get my pix from so many places. I use various photographers work, but you can use this site http://www.beautifulmag.eu/beautiful this is how I got started with my huge collection. I am glad that you like the images I post on my blog...

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  9. The Bible says "And He will make our enemies our footstooles" ....... And there it is lol

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  10. I think that was the Universe way of having him atone for what he did and his ignorance.It was meant for him to see that his actions did not defeat you and you thrived and used that negative energy to your benefit.

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