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Thursday, 12 March 2009

OLDIE, BUT GOODIE: DEAR GOD…


So as I was going through all the blog entries that brought me thus far; and I realized that I had some good stuff that didn’t get their fair share. So I’ve decided to start a new category titled OLDIE, BUT GOODIE. So I thought that I’d get things started with one of my faves that was written during the beginning stages of my blog. The title IF GAY MEANS HAPPY, WHY ARE WE SO SAD…caught my attention as I watching an episode of WILL & GRACE and I thought hmmm…That would make an EXCELLENT blog entry. SO IN READING THIS AGAIN, I MADE A FEW CHANGES…CALL IT ME TRYING TO MAKE IT PERFECT…(crazy huh, how can you PERFECT PERFECTION?) So here it is back again for the first time…I HOPE YOU ENJOY READING IT AS MUCH AS I ENJOYED WRITING IT…Is it the illusion of THE LIFE, living an existence that is impaired to society? I am not my gender or my sexual orientation. However, I recognize THIS ILLUSION FOR WHAT IT IS. I see us as people behave in ways that quite possibly go against our TRUTH! Whether we are at the sex party, the bar/club, we see him (a stranger) and we must have HIM. Everything hinges on him responding, and if he does not, we may act out in other ways all in the hopes of capturing that ILLUSION. THE ILLUSION could last from a few minutes to spending the weekend or lifetime together. Enjoying each other sexually funny how at that very moment you are wishing that this was not with a stranger, hoping this is the MAN GOD send for you. But you're in that moment so you fall into the ILLUSION. The truth has been revealed…So I say, be the VICTOR not the victim...I am a part of this community and I embrace it. I embrace that we have sex parties, we have the bars & clubs, and frequent by effeminate men. That men will not date others because they are HIV positive. That I am no thug, that there are thugs, that there are men who identify as tops, bottoms, and versatile and through it all we are THE LIFE. I am Opened to THE LIFE! I may not know completely who I am, but I do know who I am not. I am not my body or my clothing. I am not my emotions or my feelings. I am not my thoughts or my desires. I am not my job or my money. I am not my partner or my family. I am not my past. I am not my future. I am not even my present. Who am I? I am who I am. Who are you? Think outside THE LIFE! Don’t’ be a 24-HOUR SISSY you know the ones that are into cat-walking stealing and gal-ish dealings…just prisoners. Men that are wasted just living for the thrill & pleasure, without a F&CKING hope in the world. Never realizing that a gal-ish man is a shattered being, blocking the reality that only comes from deep inside, after all self-actualization is something they don’t need. RIGHT? Not respecting himself, not realizing…The beauty that is MAN. Just being selfish…disgracing being, a beauty that can’t be harness. We are making SO many dumb choices that we are NOT wining, we are losing as a matter of fact, WE ARE LOST! WHEN I THINK OF THE LOST DREAMS…SO MANY MEN WASTED THAT CAN’T STAND UP & SAY I AM GAY N’ PROUD…BUT WHO NEEDS STRENGTH & PRIDE WITH A MINI-SKIRT, PENIS TUCKED & 6” PUMPS ON YOUR FEET? BUT I DIGRESS…I MEAN WE ARE BUT A STAIN IN THE UNCERTAINNESS & THIS REALITY IS A BIT TOO REAL…JUST TRYING TO FEEL, ACT & BE…ANYTHING…NOTHING…JUST LIVING A LIFE THAT TOTALLY GOES AGAINST WHAT BEING GAY REALLY STANDS FOR…

21 comments:

  1. Amen to that (and that's coming from an atheist)!

    Thanks for re-running this, definitely worth reading and pondering on...

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  2. Wow, that was amazing. I look forward to the "Oldie, but Goodies". Keep them coming...

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  3. Interesting......

    Definitely Gave Me Something to think about....

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  4. KA-OS - ARE YOU REALLY AN ATHEIST?

    Q - I AM GLAD YOU APPROVE...MORE SHALL FOLLOW...LOOK TO THE EAST (^_^)

    PRIMO - GOOD THAT'S THE PLAN

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  5. i loooooooooove me some will & grace.. karen is me... meets new york.

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  6. I think your oldie but goodie really hits on something that all of us face --- or don't face, maybe. And for me it's the fact that we are "outsiders" from what is called "society". At least that society as it is formed here in the USA. And as outsiders we MUST make up our own rules (of behavior, of what is a man, of what love is) in order to form a self-image that we can accept for ourselves. We know that we are different and in a society that won't accept those differences, we are forced to create a life that allows each of us to feel more at home with that person we know to be
    "me".

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  7. Such a great post man. Definitely resonated with me.

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  8. Nicely worded, food for thought, interesting point of view. I think I may use this for a topic of conversation for a group of gay men I am working with. Thanks for the inspiration.

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  9. KA-OS - YEAH I AM...JUST THAT YOU MADE REFERENCE TO IT ON MORE THAN ONE OCCASION

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  10. LOL... Hmm. You've read my blog, surely you know how I feel about religion/God?!

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  11. WOW! Excellent points, mane. This WAS pretty damn close to perfection! Kinda makes me wish that *I'd* written it because its cause for ponderation! You could be a motivational speaker w/ this kind of enlightened-speak.

    Glad you dusted it off for the remix.

    One.

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  12. As we go into April (one year of authoring my own blog), I'd planned to do the same thing, and revisit some of my own earlier posts. I think my writing has gotten better so yes, I also thought I'd tighten them up a little bit, too! Maybe add a few new pics! Cool idea!

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  13. hmmm, it makes really no sense...cos I was raised to know that gay meant happy.....

    sheesh, well this is life....I dont know.

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  14. KA-OS – I KNOW, I KNOW…

    SOCIALEDISTURBED – OH LAWD!!!
    HAMAD – KNOWING IS ONE THING, DOING IS ANOTHER…
    MONSIEUR LLOYD – MY JOB IS DONE HERE…

    WHOZHE – WOW I WOULD LOVE TO BE THERE IF YOU WERE TO USE THIS AS A TOPIC FOR YOUR GROUP DISCUSSIONS

    MOANERPLICITY – YOU GOT ME THINKING…HMMM…

    COREY – YEAH IT IS GREAT EXERCISE…

    OYIN – TELL ME ABOUT IT…

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  15. I love this post. I have some that I wrote while on trips and never posted....maybe I'll do the same. How therapeutic is blogging? I love it. Thanks!

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  16. Glad you revisited this entry,this is another great entry which challenges us to live our best lives. Thanks for being that beacon of life that is needed today more than ever.....

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  17. THE CPA DOC - ISN'T VERY THERAPEUTIC?

    OSSIE - THERE IS MORE TO COME...

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  18. I love the part about not knowing completely who u are, but knowing who your not. That hit me. It took me a while to find who i am. And im still learning.

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  19. TRU3LOGIC - I HOPE WE ALL ARE...

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  20. Nice entry
    Love the 24 hour sissy reference

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