¡We can no longer be a bunch of empty minds living in critical times refusing to recognize real lies!

Tuesday, 05 January 2010

REST IN PEACE CHARLES WASHINGTON CAREY



Today we buried my grandfather on would have been is 75th birthday. The service was nice and it was interesting looking around @ my family all in one place @ the same time. I felt like an alien, like I didn’t come from them…but what is strange about how I felt is that it didn’t bother me @ all!

It was interesting seeing my uncle looking all sad like he was about to shed a tear. I guess all the years of hating his father made him feel like shit. I know my grandfather was a horrible role model, a bad father and not to mention grandfather; and I would LOVE to say that he did the best he knew how, but that would be LIE! He didn’t do the best he knew how and that was best he knew how…make sense?

As I listened to the pastor of his church talked about how dedicated he was to the church, I wondered who was she talking about? Then I realized she was right…he didn’t devout his time and energy on his family and he religiously attend church. As I thought more about him, I realized that my grandfather was a proud man and I ALWAYS wondered what he had to be proud about? His walk, the way he would introduce us to his friends…the way he did his own thing despite getting on EVERYONE’S nerves…

Nonetheless, I did clue into one of the questions I have about death @ his funeral. You see I ALWAYS wondered why we make such a big deal about people dying? I mean it is natural part of life…the process that we ALL must go through. But today I understood that not being able to see a person anymore leaves an empty feeling inside of you, one that will heal in time, but leave a scar in the process. So if the dream I had about him last night is any indication about how he is doing, I AM SURE HE IS DOING VERY WELL…That smile that he gave me as I approached him made me recognize that he was who he was and he did EXACTLY what he was suppose to do on this earth…So as he rest in peace, I would like to tell him THANK YOU for making me push myself beyond where he reached…After all isn’t that what the generations that come after is suppose to do?

12 comments:

  1. Some people believe living is a disease of the mind which can only be cured by dying at which point all of the self limiting hatred and loathing you have somehow fades away in return for total enlightenment.
    Some people believe there is no heaven or hell and that the truly evil here on earth will attain equal enlightenment as these same people feel living is price and payment enough for the kind of glory they hope comes next.
    I believe when the body expires so does a mind fully human and incapable of comprehending an end to itself.
    I also believe for those who outlive others we are, as humans, incredibly inventive in the ways in which we cope with and or process grief even for those who may not deserve it.
    I'm sorry you are grieving and sending you some positive thoughts.

    - Cogent Ascending

    ReplyDelete
  2. Sorry for your loss. i lost my grandfather about 5 years ago and the memories are still relevant. My grandfather could be quite the recluse. it wasn't until he got really sick and have his leg amputated that i saw this strong ,hard-working,patriotic, secret, man cry.We found out so many things about my grandfather after he was called home. On eof the most revealing things was how he kept up with all of our programs from school plays, pictures from games, graduation pictures, birth pictures, and even some clothing that we wore. ...It was amazing and quite beautiful...I am sure that your grandpa prayed for you all everytime he went to church...

    ReplyDelete
  3. With death, whatever the person used to do, especially the bad part, cease to matter. What becomes important is whether he is at peace wherever he is. And that is the most important part.

    Do u believe in spirits & life beyond, Kishna-Andrew? Or do u think that once a person dies, that is it?

    ReplyDelete
  4. So, can u say that u finaly came to face with the spirit of your ancestor??? Or what did u think your dream was about?

    ReplyDelete
  5. My condolences.
    I don't know what type of person he was... but i can appreciate you have perspective enough to rise above it.

    ReplyDelete
  6. My condolences to you and your family. Earth has no sorrow that Heaven can not heal.

    ReplyDelete
  7. It has been a long while since I have feared that final door in this mortal place. I live as live now not in a hope for some future promise.

    Eternal life would be cool, I could find ways to fill the space, but like you I wonder why dying is mans greatest fear?

    Good post, good thoughts.

    Be Well

    ReplyDelete
  8. sorry for your loss and let him rest in peace.

    Some people aren't good role models, but they're damn good at making you realize what you don't wanna be like. That's somehow their merit.

    ReplyDelete
  9. my deepest sympathy to you and yours bro.

    remember everybody, whether good or bad, is here on earth for a particular reason whether they know it or not. I truly believe that when that purpose is fulfilled, unbeknownst to mankind, then we depart ways with this world.

    For all we know, his purpose could have been to be the way he was to enlightened someone else and propel them towards there destiny...life is one big obstacle and unfortunately, when we think we have reached the end...we stumble across an even bigger course!

    ReplyDelete
  10. I'm sorry for the loss of your family. Eventhough death is a part of life. I do know how those scars still can hurt. I'm glad that you have peace when you think of ur grandfather. I can't say that I will have any thoughts of mine when the time comes for hime to transend.

    ReplyDelete
  11. COGENT ASCENDING – I ALWAYS LOVE WHERE YOUR MIND & HEART ARE…THANK YOU!

    MACKSON – THANK YOU & A BIGGER THANKS FOR SHARING YOUR LOSS WITH ME…

    MISS SHALLOTTE – I DON’T BELIEVE THAT WHEN A PERSON DIES THAT IS THAT…I THINK CAME FACE TO FACE WITH MY GRANDFATHER…NO DOUBT IN MY MIND @ ALL!

    MECHADUDE2001 – HE WAS HUMAN…

    CHET – THANK YOU SO MUCH!

    THE WALKING MAN – WHEN I TELL PEOPLE THAT I AM NOT AFRAID OF DYING, THEY LOOK @ ME LIKE I AM CRAZY! THANK YOU FOR YOUR WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT…

    THEPULPIT – THANK YOU…

    EDUARDO – HE WILL REST IN PEACE…YOU ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT THAT!

    MRSOMAGICAL – THANK YOU…MY SENTIMENTS EXACTLY ON YOUR COMMENT!
    TRU3LOGIC – I KNOW ABOUT YOUR SCARS, YOU’VE ENDURED SO MUCH…

    ReplyDelete

THANK YOU FOR YOUR VOICE...

LinkWithin

Related Posts with Thumbnails